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Starting Over Again! Thanks To Those Who Help Gi...: Starting Over Again! Thanks To Those Who Help Give a Hand Up! Seizing the Opportunity, Making it, and Losing It All Rebuilding Again! ...
Saturday, August 27, 2016
Starting Over Again! Thanks To Those Who Help Give a Hand Up!
Seizing the Opportunity, Making it, and Losing It All Rebuilding Again!
What people need most is a listening ear, someone to see the needs to alleviate barriers and establish opportunity! Appreciate those who help you, always. This happens rarely or never in many peoples lives.
I remember when I was struggling finding a stress freeing job...something that I could do and not experience anxiety, but free myself from it. I thought about how much I enjoyed cleaning. How it could make me money. I went to get licensed, and had an index card of a cartoon lady sort of like Carol Burnett's and went to make business cards and Office Max...there beside me was a man listening...and asked if he could have the card I had in my hand...that was my first client. I had a contract with Discovery Zone. It was the most incredible thing I had ever done for me. I am at that place in my life again...But, before that, was the incredible feat of taking the doorknob and opening the door after experiencing a panic attack for 3 days. I walked out and went into a park. I felt I would die if I didn't force myself to leave the house, no matter how much fear I had felt...I had been working for McDonald's and my jaw locked open....then my teeth chattered and I couldn't stop it so I went to the nearest doctor...where I found I had experienced an extreme panic attack. I was fired for leaving work...despite the obvious problem, which didn't help the stress. I was told to reduce my stress to rest, exercise, and find a way to do everything 'easier'. I walked everywhere, and lived very minimally, had tons of wealthier friends, had an abusive ex husband, and a child who couldn't figure out which parent she loved.
Not to depress you much further about those details. I fainted and was rescued by a dear faithful customer at the McDonald's I had been fired from. We had a meal, after going to the hospital, and discussed my situation. He listened and he heard me...and we found resolve after his coaxing me out of the house every morning to have breakfast and talk at a nearby small restaurant. He helped me at 30 years of age get a license that no one had ever offered their car for me to go get...which meant I walked everywhere. I was limited on jobs, and when I could work, I have Epilepsy, but mostly it is controlled. I have worked a job for my medication/medical, for house expenses, and for the ability to try to get good schooling for my daughter, who says now, that we were never close...and eventually chose to live with her father who didn't pay child support I have tried to help my eldest and youngest to have a superior life. Many mothers lose themselves in the role of parenting, not having their needs or dreams met. Please, mothers love yourself.I am sure this blog touches on so many topics, and I could go on on the appreciation of all who have touched my life and helped me to move forward in my life. But, life is to be lived not merely survived.. I hope they know I appreciate them. I will post more about that later. It has been a while, and I felt it should be known it's been a tough road. I have lost it all, but am still persevering to keep trying to succeed and make my dreams come true...one day..
I tell you this story, because two people changed the direction of my life...for the better. There are few people who will do that. I had moved to Maui, worked and had a baby, became sick, and tried to work through it, my daughter started having behavioral issues which effected my cleaning business. I focused on her needs. Moved back to Florida...to start a new life with much of nothing. A year later, I still don't have much...just hanging on. I would give anything for the opportunity to start over with a little help up. It was the sweetest time in my life to not be invisible to others, my friends, colleagues, and family...to be noticed and appreciated meant the world to me, but to be helped to succeed in life WOW! I feel like I am her again...wanting to make a better way...now that I have hopefully, found a way for my child to be helped...hoping, anyway. It would be nice to have a career...to have a life, and to live again! Surviving is only waiting for the time of failure. I really am about to have it all if I have a car, the business again, and to work at home doing a store of customer service at home...Thank God for these opportunities, today. Now for the car, license in this state, and license to work, equipment, and the work is available for me to do. It's sad to say I put all of my money into my kids, and none for myself. I really didn't understand money and that I would be 50 years old one day and not be able to support myself when sick...I never thought that I was unloved, or alone. But, I realize that now. I understand that I am important and need to protect myself. No one loves me more than myself, and children can be manipulative. I don't have to earn their love and they don't have to like me saying 'no'...when I could look back...I only want to look forward to living my life from now on. To do art, for money, to work and enjoy my life...something many think I have done. But, everywhere I went was to work. I have worked very hard to survive. I am thankful to have made it this far. I plan to do things smarter and to live, finally...and be happy doing what I dreamt...art, learn music, write, cooking, baking,and express myself creatively in most any way I can...I will do it. I will work, doing other things to help support that life I want to live.
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| Starting to paint again! 7/2016 |
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DownHomeGirl~Abroad: The Adventure for my Life time: Becoming a Better ...
DownHomeGirl~Abroad: The Adventure for my Life time: Becoming a Better ...: Exercise, Nutrition, and Meditation A way of life that should have helped me maintain great health. I love fresh healthy foods and th...
The Adventure for my Life time: Becoming a Better ME!
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Exercise, Nutrition, and Meditation
A way of life that should have helped me maintain great health. I love fresh healthy foods and the art of putting the flavors together to become a masterpiece in a persons mouth, and medicinal for ones body.
But, there is work, and mine was industrial. One would never think as many times after watching Silk that it could happen to them. Allergies to industrial chemicals. What is a person to do after that? Doctors seemed to be perplexed for 11 years, and my body dwindled near to death in a matter of 5 years.
It seemed my continuing working with the chemicals I could use, cleaning to support my daughter solely...was not good enough, and soon after having so many infections, that lead to my lack of healing, and a dental procedure that became a blood infection. Gross...worse than that it destroyed me, and I became homeless...and sick. After surgery, it appeared I would be fine. But, to find work that was not cleaning would be difficult. No matter what company hired me, I was to clean as part of the employment.
So, my thyroid could not handle it anymore. I became a person who takes a pill daily, who battles weight and loss of energy. Nutrition once again became a huge focus. Not everything I ate was good for me, processed foods, and gluten. Well, to rediscover food, and develop recipes is a daily adventure. But, now to regain the energy and my once very attractive body, skin, and energy....oh, how I want this back.
I am on the adventure of a lifetime! I invite you to come along. Do this with me, and say we have become the "Better ME!".
I invite you to a challenge of 1 week, talk with me, and I will post exercises we can do, meal plans, and inexpensive ideas for fresh herbs, fruits, nuts, and veggies. We will meditate on positive information and thoughts to carry with us through these days...
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Ava singing in the talent show 15 second recording
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